EtGoAFS//Brokenness

Psalm 51

"Have mercy on me, O God, according to your steadfast love;

according to your abundant mercy blot out my transgressions.

Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin!

For I know my transgressions, and my sin is ever before me.

Against you, you only, have I sinned and done what is evil in your sight,

so that you may be justified in your words and blameless in your judgment.

Behold, I was brought forth in iniquity, and in sin did my mother conceive me.

Behold, you delight in truth in the inward being, 

and you teach me wisdom in the secret heart.

Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean; wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow.

Let me hear joy and gladness; let the bones that you have broken rejoice.

Hide your face from my sins, and blot out all my iniquities.

Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me.

Cast me not away from your presence, and take not your Holy Spirit from me.

Restore to me the joy of your salvation, and uphold me with a willing spirit.

Then I will teach transgressors your ways, and sinners will return to you.

Deliver me from blood-guiltiness, O God, O God of my salvation,

    and my tongue will sing aloud of your righteousness.

O Lord, open my lips, and my mouth will declare your praise.

For you will not delight in sacrifice, or I would give it;

    you will not be pleased with a burnt offering.

The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; 

    a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise.

Do good to Zion in your good pleasure; build up the walls of Jerusalem;

then will you delight in right sacrifices, in burnt offerings and whole burnt offerings;

    then bulls will be offered on your altar."

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Just like in the Psalm 32, this beautiful and broken Psalm is written by King David after committing sin with Bathsheba. 

Right now, the Lord is teaching me how I can live a free life in Him. A life, free of guilt, free of fear, and free to serve Him. The word I get from this passage:

I need to be broken with my sin; Understanding that my sin is against a Holy God! I can't take it lightly, He doesn't. It is serious, it quenches the Spirit.

Here, David is truly crying out for forgiveness. God is Holy! And He is also merciful and full of grace! Because I am covered in Jesus' blood, I am forgiven! I am seen through that by God. But there still is that idea of confession and forgiveness as a believer. Am I practicing that? Truly crying out to Him about my sin??

Then I need to claim His forgiveness as my own, offer a humble heart to Him and use my story to show others how they can be forgiven and covered in grace. I can't let my sin cripple me! That is exactly what Satan wants. God promises to not remember my sin, why do I then, still hold on? 

You can read part one and two of this "series" Here and Here =)

Until next time..